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Dollars add up

January 26, 2010

My mom called today a little panicked. It seems someone had taken her ATM card number and drained her checking account. When I hear about such violations against my own family I think of my job and how I have to look past my students’ iniquities in order to help them.  My job requires blinders rather than non-judgement. The blinders are in place because when the adults I teach walk through my door they are students first, not criminals and drug addicts. I don’t treat drug addiction, I help improve math skills. I have a theory that math can help in recovery from drugs because math requires a drug addict to use a very specific part of the brain that is in counterpoint to the dopamine-releasing, pleasure-seeking area of the limbic system addicts have been accessing for most of their lives. More math, less meth. Make sense? When one of my students tells me they are bored, I say great, welcome to the real world where dollars add up because you earned them.

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Shine a light on it

January 22, 2010

I wonder if I have become more open to hearing student stories since starting this blog? Today Wilson actually asked if he could come in to speak with me on my lunch break.  I probably would have turned him down, lunch breaks are sacred to teachers, but he recently hand cleaned all the chairs in my school and I feel listening is the least I can do. It must be stressed here that my school though located inside a drug rehab is not part of the therapeutic process. My students come to me to learn math and reading.

So I’m eating my taco salad prepared by the on site kitchen and Wilson tells me he didn’t make it to the solar paneling class he recently enrolled in. Instead he smoked marijuana on the premises in his room. He also told me he recently opened up about some early childhood abuse, spoke about it to staff. I gave him my whole attention. He told me his mom was his role model even if she wasn’t always there for him. Mostly, he seemed humble always saying others have it much worse. I hope he goes back to learn a trade. Fear of success is big in these guys. It’s rare to hear about success but even rarer to see it sustained.

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Tenth post

January 20, 2010

This is my tenth entry. I’m pretty sure this is a solo venture. If you are out there and have read any of my entries please leave me a comment, just a note to let me know this is different from keeping a private journal. Today my student Terrence wrote a letter, a response to his mother whom he hadn’t heard from in over a year. Terrence is a transsexual, male to female, and one of my favorite students at the rehab. He is moody and boldly honest and he out-dresses us all. He wrote that he didn’t have anywhere to go when his time at the rehab is up. Sometimes I wonder if he relapsed and returned because our community is a safe haven for him. He tried to explain to his mother that life is worth living, that he was hurt in the past when she hadn’t been there but didn’t hold on to resentment. I loved the end of his letter where he wished everything good for her, a nice home, a good job and a car.

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78 words

January 18, 2010

A new student says he has a low reading level but makes his money counting cards; says he has been kicked out of several casinos, can count up to 5 decks at once. Meth and more meth. Carly told me she had her pregnancy terminated because the baby wasn’t developing. Rain and more rain. Even adults need to be read to. I might read The Little Prince to my students, the perfect antidote to Avatar. Hope and more hope.